Rock On!

I am crazy about music (as most of you would know).. I cant think of a life without music.. and the only regret I have in my life is that I never took the time to learn to play the two instruments that I love so much... The guitar and the drums... though not in that order... There is nothing I'd love to do more than play either of these amazing creations... I dont know.. Whenever I hear someone play the guitar or the drums, I feel awe (though not at that chick who was pretending to play the guitar at last nights FON)... My dear friend Ajit plays one mean guitar man... He really rocks (as he showed yesterday :)) and its all the more amazing since he learned it all by himself... A lot of credit to the man... A couple of days ago we were sitting in the lab and doing our versions of 'Hotel California' - The Eagles, 'You got to hide you love away' - The Beatles/Eddie Vedder and a couple more... as usual I was croaking along but man did that feel good...

The one song that Ajit and I like to jam to together is 'The man who sold the world' by Nirvana... He plays it really really well (due respects to the dearly departed Kurt Cobain)... Heck someday I hope to give him a sexy Fender Electric Guitar... and mabbe he could teach me how to play it too :)... For now though, Ajit, dude, i'll give you a virtual iou.. for all the great times man... keep rocking... (and learn how to play 'Black' :))

my lyrics for today:

We passed upon the stair
We spoke of was and when
Although I wasn't there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone
A long long time ago

Oh no, not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With The Man Who Sold The World

I laughed and shook his hand
And made my way back home
I searched for form and land
For years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazeless stare
At all the millions here
I must have died alone (Alt: I must have died along)
A long, long time ago

Who knows?
Not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the Man who Sold the World

Nirvana - The Man Who Sold the World (MTV Unplugged - Live at New York)

'That was a David Bowie song' - Kurt Cobain

Appeasing the gods: my way

Sometimes, you just have to make the ultimate sacrifice in order to change the way your life is going... This morning when I looked in the mirror, I told myself, Prashant, the time has come when you made that sacrifice... appease the gods for they arent giving you anything... I figured that if I give up something or someone I love a lot lot, then mabbe it would pacify all those gods whom I have angered... and so with a heavy heart, I did it... I did the unimaginable... I did what I said I wudnt do... for I loved so much..... the feel... the touch... even the thought... and now nothing remains.... nothing but emptiness... well not emptiness exactly, but yeah.... almost emptiness (if there is something like that ;))... I guess I am the better for it (atleast everyone else thinks so)... I feel lighter already... literally...

Oh my dear dear locks.... forgive me cuz I had you chopped off... It hurt me a lot more than it hurt you (for you are nothing but dead cells) to see the scissors mercilessly hack you off the head that has carried you so well... for so long... I will miss you falling on my face and sometimes smiting my eyes.... I will miss the oh sweet curls.... tsk tsk tsk.. this is an emotional moment for me... I would like everyone to observe a minute of silence for the dearly departed...

P.S. - : the guy wanted to charge me by the pound, but I said i'd go broke if he did that ;)...

Pure Drivel

I am wondering what to write because the words just wont come to me... Its very seldom that something like this happens.. Usually, I have the words for all occasions.. But somehow, these days, my words have abandonded me too.. Not that I should be complaining.. I was talking to a friend the other day and she said, 'we should complain you know.. cuz it helps'... Well, most of my complaining just leads me nowhere.. So I wont complain... I miss my city and my friends.. I know its gonna be a while before I see either but then, that is how life is.. I had lots of work this past week.. I still might have a lot more work before this week is over.. I like having work.. Gives me something to do.. for ages now, I have believed in this one line that has gotten me through a lot of things.. 'Good things happen to good people'.. But lately, I am losing faith... Seems that this is just another stupid line of mine... which works in utopia but not in real life.. All I see is good things happening to bad people... My best friend N tells me that life moves on and doesnt wait for nebody.. but does it really? Guess its upto the person really.. and I will eventually.. and I have no idea what I am writing... just need to get things out of my system... I went to the lake late last night... threw some rocks in the water... thats wat I do usually when I go there.... But like Forrest Gump says, 'Sometimes, I guess there's just not enough rocks'...

my lyrics for today:
Time, why you punish me?
Like a wave bashing into the shore
You wash away my dreams.
Time, why you walk away?
Like a friend with somewhere to go
You left me crying
Can you teach me about tommorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
Cause tomorrow's just another day
And I don't believe in time
.....
Can you teach me about tomorrow
All the pain and sorrow
Running free?
But tomorrow's just another day
And I don't believe in...
Time is wasting
Time is walking
You ain't no friend of mine
I don't know where i'm goin'
I think I'm out of my mind
Thinking about time
And if I die tomorrow, yeah
Just lay me down in sleep
Time, you left me standing there
Like a tree growing all alone
The wind just stripped me bare, stripped me bare
Time, the past has come and gone
The future's far away
Now only lasts for one second, one second
Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
'Cause tomorrow's just another day
And I don't believe in time


Hootie and the Blowfish - Time

You wont cry for my abscence, I know.
You forgot me long ago,
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isnt something missing?
Isnt someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You wont try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isnt someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
knowing you dont care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you,
I'll wake without you there,
Isnt something missing?

Evanescence - Missing

Revelations of the past 5 days

Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt completely alone?

Have you ever closed your eyes and felt as if you were falling, into this deep emptiness, of which there is no end?

Have you ever felt so scared that you were afraid to even breathe?

Have you ever felt so fucked up, that the words fucked up actually dont mean anything anymore?

Have you ever heard your favourite song and not been able to recall its lyrics?

Have you ever looked at something for 2 hours and not have a single thought in your mind about that thing?

Have you ever tried not to look at the largest lake in the world which sits bang in the middle of any view, any side you look?

Have you ever realized that you cant run as fast as you used to and felt really sick about it?

Have you ever asked yourself, 'why me'?

Have you ever hated someone?

Have you ever loved someone?

Have you ever tried to fall out of love?

Have you ever tried to forget?

my lyrics for today:

I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cuz I'm broken when I'm open
and I dont feel like I am strong enough
cuz I'm broken when I'm lonesome
and I dont feel right when you're gone away

you've gone away; you dont feel me here, anymore......

Seether (feat. Amy Lee) - Broken

bonus lyrics for today:

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
.......
I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time
Oh this time
Without you
....
I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die

Guns n' Roses - Estranged

My motto from here on in

Fuck it!

P.S.: Also happen to be the words that my favourite actor Johnny Depp tries to live by. I'm rooting for him again this time for the Best Actor Award at the Oscars.. But I dont think second time is gonna be the charm either for Johnny..